At this very moment, my blood runs cold. When I think about I may have the possibility to drop from my class, I disgust myself very much. Like a boat from the blue, I mess up my final examination! I have taken aback of myself and in the deep of my heart; the pain is too great, I felt like my heart can break into two.
I tried to tell my parents about the harsh reality, but I am fidgeting incessantly to do so, I am very worry about their disappointment at me. I feel extremely stressful and even don’t know what can I do. Simultaneously, I feel like I was thrown into the darkness, I shriek at the top of my voice, but no one can hear me. There is nothing except for cold hardness and darkness that I have not ever seen.
I am amazed with my stupidity, why am I so stupid??? Don’t talk about others; I also nearly fell off my chair. WHO is willing to lend me a helping hand? Around the examination, I study so hard that I burn the midnight oil and sacrifice a lot of my pleasure, but THIS WAS THE ONE THAT I GET!!!!!!!!!!! Why? I try so hard to achieve my jubilation, but the reality seems to be opposite from my thinking.
Also, I hate myself that why am I so useless and half-wit? I really feel as guilty as a child with her hand caught in the cookie jar! I don’t want my parents to feel unhappy just because of my worst result. What can I do? I really feel exhausted with it, I’m like running on a very, very far distance , the distance is too far that I can’t see the end of view, but I also disable to return to the starting point.
I feel extreme miserable and till now I understand what is meant by “failure”!! From the moment I was born to this world until now, this is the first and the greatest sorrow which I face ……
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